I don’t really know what to tell you this week. Nothing super exciting is happening at the moment (at least in my life – I’m sure somewhere on campus there are very many exciting things going on). But I guess that in itself can be worth talking about. Not every minute of every day is going to be the most amazing time of your life. Honestly, that’s relevant to study abroad too. And an important thing to keep in mind.
Those days I struggled with my choice to come to UMass were those days that I was bored. Freshman year my course load was light and I hadn’t started working yet. I was friends with a lot of pre-med people. Pre-med people always have lots of homework. Me, not so much.
Everyone says that college is going to be the best four years of your life. All your friends are constantly gushing about how much they love their school. All you see on social media is picture after picture of people from high school living it up and thriving. And then there’s you, eating peanut butter out of a jar with a spoon on your fifth Orange is the New Black episode of the day and thinking, "what did I do wrong? Why am I not feeling in love with this school 24/7? Why am I not having the time of my life at 1:20 p.m. on a Tuesday?"
The answer to these questions I eventually learned is that people are liars. Ok that’s aggressive, but kind of true. No one is happy all of the time no matter what school they go to. Everyone binge eats peanut butter and watches Netflix. Everyone feels exactly how you’re feeling. Honestly, if someone were to look at your pages on social media they would think the way you’re thinking about everyone else’s experience – “She’s having the time of her life. Why do I not feel like that?”
UMass is an amazing school. I do love it. But there are slow days and slow weeks and no, those days will not be the highlight of my life. But these years as a whole just might be.
As for study abroad, Irish Netflix also had Orange is the New Black so you can just imagine how I spent many rainy afternoons.
My door is always open.
See you around,
PS - I thought a picture of you, Teenie, and Beth bored out of your minds in Ireland would be appropriate.